Its time for my quarterly post

Ive said it before, Ill say it a million times... I suck at blogging. SUCK at it. While I was a working mom I never felt like i had time to blog.  I always anticipated my lay-off thinking I would be able to blog more often. I suppose i was wrong with that. As I sit here to catch up, in the back of my mind I'm thinking of all the things I could do around the house.

 While its always fun to keep others updated on my wonderful life I really want to blog for myself. Writing for me is a release. Its so easy for me to just sit and write. I also want to be able to look back and have my memories. Ive said this before but hopefully I can take time to blog a few times a week. Life goes by so quickly and its hard to catch up once I fall months behind.

So here goes... the mother of all catch ups.

Since Febuary... We have spent 3 weeks at my moms house in March, celebrated one year of house payments, Paisley has turned two, Jayden has made it to the 1st grade and she also has her biological father back in her life, Chris and I have traveled to California to see Tim McGraw and Kenny Chesney ( EPIC concert), the girls and i have tagged along with Chris as he has traveled out of town for work and we spent a wonderful week in Missouri with everyone on my moms side (minus Kayla :: My cousin :: who was exploring London ).

A little detail about Jayden. As kindergarden came to an end, she was given awards from her teacher. One was for being a good helper, One was for meeting her goals in kindergarden and the last was 3rd place in reading. We were pretty proud of her. She has already started the first grade. This year we enrolled her in an immersion program. What it is - 1st grade through 6th grade she will be taught half the day in Spanish then the other in English. The purpose is by the end of 6th grade she should be fluent in Spanish.  So far she is adjusting to 1st grade in general. Going to school all day makes for a long day for her. I think she will do awesome as soon as the adjustment period is over.

We have also brought Wes (Jades biological father ) and Lindey (his fiance) back into Jade's life. It took a lot of soul searching to let it happen. It would have been so easy for me to hate him my whole life. But when push came to shove its not about me. Its not about all the shit that he put me through or the tears I cried. Its about my baby girl, who when I left him I thought she would be too young to remember him. She never forgot about him and never stopped bringing him up. Her behavior reflected the hurt she had inside about him. I was really anxious to let him come back.  I had to realize that Jade is a big girl, if he lets her down, I dont have to be disappointed on her behalf. She can make that decision now. I was so afraid he would come into her life, stay for a while and disappear. Thats just not the case, things have changed. He and Lindey come and get her when they say they will. I really respect Lindey, what a weird situation to be thrown into and she has been a champ about it. I couldnt ask for a better situation for Jade. She has two dads that love the shit out of her and two moms that love her too.  In all my years of dealing with "split families" I knew exactly what I didnt want. I didnt want us to hate each other, belittle each other around Jade, or make her feel like one family was better than the other. We all (Chris, myself, Wes and Lindey) have worked to have a good relationship with each other. There is no hate or animosity towards each other.  I want Jade to never have to chose between one family or the other. I want her to know we are all a team and we will all work together to raise her into the beautiful woman she is destine to be.